As I sit here today, reflecting on the passage of time, I find myself astounded by the transformation I’ve undergone. It’s been a journey spanning eight to nine years, marked by a profound shift in perspective. Looking back, I can’t help but recognize the triviality of the fears and insecurities that once held me captive.
For far too long, I allowed myself to be consumed by the fear of abandonment, lacking trust in my own abilities, and succumbing to a pervasive belief that something was fundamentally wrong with me. I made a habit of leaving things before they could leave me, always anticipating a negative outcome and striving tirelessly to please those around me, often at the expense of my own well-being.
But amidst the chaos of my inner turmoil, I embarked on a spiritual quest. Through meditation, surrendering to the universe, and harnessing the power of mantras, I began to find solace. Each moment spent in quiet contemplation, whether reciting the Hanuman Chalisa or chanting “Om Namah Shivaya,” brought with it an unparalleled sense of peace.
I’ve come to realize that perhaps, had I embarked on this path sooner, I could have altered the course of my destiny. But dwelling on the past serves no purpose. Instead, I choose to focus on the present and the profound impact my newfound sense of calmness has had on my life.
Though my journey is far from over, I find myself in a place of contentment. Despite facing adversity on a daily basis – doubts, failures, and rejection – I am unwavering in my gratitude. I’ve learned to prioritize my emotional and spiritual well-being above all else, nurturing relationships with love and care while maintaining a healthy distance when necessary.
Every breath I take is a gift, a reminder of the miraculous nature of existence. Whether I’m conquering mountains despite my physical limitations or finding abundance in the warmth of my home and the company of loved ones, I am filled with gratitude.
I no longer doubt my worthiness or question the validity of my blessings. Everything I receive is a reflection of my inherent value, a testament to the power of faith and perseverance.
As I continue on this journey, I am filled with hope for the future. With each passing day, I grow stronger, more resilient, and more deeply connected to the divine forces that guide me.
In the end, it’s not about the struggles we face or the obstacles we overcome, but rather the unwavering belief in ourselves and the universe’s infinite capacity for transformation. And for that, I am eternally grateful.
Diksha Sharma 